nah bula..

bula nundeh.

doogu san ka keh?

doogu?

kasiimi appa.

我還能說什麼呢

我該怎麼辦呢

沒人可以了解 或許 了解

但是也不認同

你到底要我看清什麼

我越來越不懂

我只能每天祈禱

心痛 不明

我知道我生病了

但是沒有醫生可以醫好我

是你 你才能

但是你卻不削我的病情

說我只是無病生吟

這不是 這次真的不是

因為 心臟 真的 在痛.

Ever since “this” happened to me,

made me realised alot of ppl care about me more than I thought.

I don’t know how I’m doing, am I hanging in there or am I losing it?

Day by day,

I can’t tell if I’m getting better, but others say I am. I must believe them.

I must believe in myself.

The only person who can save me is myself.

I keep wondering what is God trying to tell me in this letter,

what did I do wrong, what am I suppose to do..?

I’ve been looking around at other ppls’ faces.

Everybody looks so healthy, there’s hardly anybody like me.

I wonder what ppl thinks when they see me.

I’m not suppose to care, because it is only temporary.

BUt sometimes you ju

st lose faith for a while and then you get back on track.

Cafe

No use of crying.. It only has bad effects. The salt in your tears will clog the pores on your face. Which then will cause further problems.

On the way of recovering..

I’m eating lots of fruits.

From my own research the reason to my problematic skin at the age of 23 is because of my lungs.

I will not go into any details because talking about this gives me goosebumps. (When I imagine sick lungs)

what do you see?

You’re the perfect person, you’re better than you say.

I dont know, I dont know, this is why it’s confusing.

It’s funny cause I love you, but at the same time I’m like..

I dont know,  I just feel I gotta find me.

Im guilty

I wanna try

but I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely

(Lyrics: Yabisi)

Coz I’m just another girl…….

I can’t tell anyone why I’m feeling this way.  Or what is the matter..

Like the song…..

I’m the one who’s being strange..

all this time..

I don’t know.. I don’t know. Why I’m like this.

I miss you so much.  I will never ever forget what you said to me.

pogusippo..

______________Trapped inside her heart.

想想以前吃水果的次數 真的少得可憐
很少主動自己吃水果 除非有人準備現成的
要不然 根本不會去洗水果來吃
現在回想 就覺得好恐怖
怎麼可以偏食到這種程度 也太不乖了
難怪皮膚會吃問題阿
so sad

現在因為冬天的關係
所以橘子是必吃的 一天至少三顆
蘋果則是早上如果有時間的話 盡量在早餐之前吃一顆蘋果
因為我看書他說吃水果最好在吃飯之前吃
這樣子比較容易消化
還有我肺功能較弱
所以盡量每天吃一顆西洋梨
最近有買一些 但是因為還太硬 所以只能等軟一點
雖然我很想現在立刻吃

還有 我發現番茄好美味喔
現在我敢生吃 大口大口的吃

以後不敢偏食了
饒了我吧 ><”

WHY!! Why does it happen?

很混亂

被嚇到驚醒

醒來感覺很不好 沒有安全感

其實我也不知道 在我身上到底發生了什麼事

好像一覺醒來 世界就變了

我也很努力在改變

雖然我不知道 有沒有關心我的改變

_____________- what is right? what is wrong?

GDbaby

回去台灣這段時間學了很多事情

改天再寫 現在要睡覺了

不想上班 星期一!