不明不白

很奇怪 我會單單因為他還記得我這個人而莫名的心失去一拍.

不知道 在他的記憶裡我是怎麼樣的人

不管怎麼樣

雖然不再連絡

還是感謝他陪我的那段時間

 

蔬菜煎餅

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沒想到第一次作就成功 為什以前從來沒這木幸運?

材料: 一杯麵粉, 一小匙番薯粉, 一丁點太白粉, 鹽巴, 高麗菜, 蛋

 

  1. 首先把麵糊拌均勻 注意 比蜂蜜在稀一點的感覺
  2. 切高麗菜 注意 不要切得太細 這樣容易燒焦
  3. 把高麗菜大概炒一下 不用熟 有一點香味出來就可以了 先放一邊降溫
  4. 玉米也是下去熱幾十秒 再放一邊涼
  5. 把已經涼的高麗菜和玉米加進麵糊 攪拌均勻
  6. 放入以加熱的平底鍋煎
  7. 等麵糊旁邊有點翹起來的時候 先不要翻 把它撈在半空中
  8. 把蛋放下去
  9. 再用沒熟的那一面的面皮下去蓋蛋
  10. 煎至熟
  11. 加自己喜歡的調味料 個人是喜歡醬油膏 完成!

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vent

Slept for 13 hours straight, it’s never happened before.

I am just so tired, so over it.

I don’t know where to pick myself up from?

I have somehow lost myself along the way.

I have nothing to tell you, no advice, no jokes.

Will you still be on my side, stay in the same line?

Bookworm

Just ate 思念成城
《成長的代價是錯過,我們往往還沒學會怎樣去愛,就已經遇上了那個會愛一輩子的人!》
《很多時候,我們會覺得自己是沒有自由的囚徒。但讓人無能為力的是,這座監獄是整個世界 》

自信opso

什麼都不想想

你能再看我一眼 我就該感激吧

只想放聲大哭

我沒有機會了吧

我沒有自信留住你

有點看清楚事實 雖然我不斷地告訴過自己

這個時候 就該把理智丟到外太空

已經看到結局的我

沒辦法把自己騙進去愛一回

今晚我們再也不能說誰還愛誰

 

 

 

 

沒資格評論我的人

在那邊看不起我

這就是所謂做賊喊抓賊吧

高招 阿

那又怎樣 你的想法只會讓我覺得你在忌妒我而已

感覺這世界上誰都不能深交

表面上微笑 心裡卻在嘲笑

我連笑都沒力氣了 你還會兩種笑法

身存好難

哭也不會有人安慰

只好去睡一覺 明天再繼續

真心感覺我沒辦法再這樣生活了

但是沒有能力離開

我從這一課 學到了什麼?

Fantasy Error (all?)

Friday, November 26, 2010

 
I had a dream that my eyelashe went into my eyes, and it actually poked through the white part of my right eye, I tried to get it out, but the more I tried, the more it bleeds. Ok I dont knwo why blogger wont let me paste anymore so I guess I will just type the main points out. To dream that your eyes are injured or closed, suggests your refusal to see the truth about something or teh avoidance of intimacy. YOu may be expressing feelings of hurt, pain or sympathy. TO dream thatyour eyes are bleeding, symbolizes the sacrifices you have made and the difficulties you have endured. Alternatively, the dream signifies some very deep pain or internal conflict within your soul. Although you may nto feel any physical pain, you are hurting inside. Perhaps you have been hiding the pain for so long that you forgot what pain feels like. THere is some unrest or uneasiness within which needs to be addressed and resovled immediately. Maybe this is true.. But I dont know what it is, since I’ve been hiding it for so long. It’s like when somebody puts on a mask, and eventually you never take it off. And you will forget what you really look like, you will not know there is mask over your face. You made yourself to believe this is who I am. I think I’ve forgotten who I am, I dont know myself anymore. Is this what I want, or what “they" want? I had another nightmare. It was about a group of us getting send to this holiday house. I knew right from the beggining that it was not going to be just a holiday.. The plan of theirs is that we get locked inside the house for a set amount of days, and someone in the group is going to be the killer, but we won’t know who. It will just be your instincts that will get you through the game. In the end everybody was going insane, because of suspicion. I was the only one who was awake coz I knew about the plan and I tried to wake everybody up from their illusions, because it was a dream in a dream, I even tried to wake myself up but I couldnt. I was left in a red theater, everything was red as red as blood, the seats, the stage, the curtains, felt like it’s a sea of blood, that will drown me because Im locked inside. It was like watching a horror movie, you know something frightening will happen next but you don’t know which second. I kept trying to wake up myself up from this illusion, but it was not possible, then I figure out that if this is a dream, then there’s not such thing as space, it’s unlimited. So I just kept walking and walking, I walked through the doors, and the illusions disappeared.
 
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Sunday, October 17, 2010


Fantasy Error xxx lost count.. =__=

 
Ok.. cant remember exactly how it started.. But lately  I have been troubled by my never ending madness dreams.. Hey.. I dont like to dream at night. Even if it is a good dream..  Because if it’s one of those lovey dreams, it feels good when you wake up.. but knowing it’s not real is worse, knowing you will never be able to meet that guy in real life. Anyway.. this one is really scary… two nightmares in a row.. *prays…. hopefully tonight.. i can sleep without waking up in the middle of the night* I was at this place, and the very next scene, one of my cousins (not in real life) got a girl pregnant from a one night stand (……). The next scene, i was at his house with my mum, my mum was talking to that cousin, it’s not the first time that he’s caused dramas like this, he actually has criminal records from a gang fight where he killed 10+ ppl.. I dont know the exact number. Later my mum left, said she will come back later. So I was alone with that cousin. I was using his notebook, he was sitting next to me doing nothing. And he wanted me to click on this video that was about the time he “accidently" killed people during the fight. The video started out with him standing on the side of the street, next to a car, 2 or 3 people comes up to him, one of them hits my cousin with a hammer, and he hits back, somehow from this point onwards, the video is no longer a video in the notebook, suddenly…. what’s happening on the screen is repeating in the lounge room that Im in, right infront of my eyes.. (Blood, many dead people or people dying and they were looking at me too), (for some reasons, in the dream things like these are quite logical and sane)… Then I turned around and looked at my cousin with shock (thinking.. how could you have done that?) He didnt look at me, coz he had a girl in his arms, he just killed her and her head was dropped from his arms (so she was looking at my upside down). She looked at me as if it was my fault that I didnt call the police or that I wasnt intending to call the police, as if she’s going to take it all back from me! I was so scared so i ran out of the house screaming I will call the police for you, I ran out because I was also scared that my cousin will also kill me for calling. I woke up.. Couldnt stop replaying those scenes in my head over and over again… The second dream.. i dont remember how it starts out as well (this reminds me of inception, he said something liek if you dont remember how you got here, it means you’re in a dream, it’s so right!) Anyway this one is about vampires and zombies…  so during the whole dream I was running and hiding from them, in the end, us humans found a safe place to hide, at this college. We locked ourselves in this room, there was about 5 or 4 of us in the room. Out of no where, one of the lady that I put all my trust in (she’s about 40s, wearing a pink lacy top with a navy knee length skirt), she turns into an old woman, extreamely wrinkled with a creepy smile, she then said lots of disgusting things like I enjoyed sleeping with you those nights, I wished you would of slept closer to me, did you like my bla bla bla, after that she wanted to suck my blood, I struggled to push her off my shoulder, i got a knife and started stabbing her shoulder, legs and arms, and she was still not dying and kept attacking me, I got really frightened (by this time, I knew it was a dream, but even so, I knew I had to kill her to wake up, or just to get to a safe place and keep going along with this dream and eventually wake up), I then started to stab her at places like her heart, her head and neck. It was like prince of persia, except she turned into newspaper, I knew I had to burn those newspapers so she will be gone forever. After that was sort out, I was left with one girl, and two kids in the room. The girl’s eye were shut, i pinched her and she didn’t wake up, I was afraid that she will turn into one of those zombies as well, so I quickly left the room with those two kids, one which i was holding in my arms (little boy), the other kid just followed closely behind me. When I was about to walk out the main entrance of the college, a man comes up to the door, of course I couldnt trust him or who knows who he might be, so I hid behind this pole. I woke up, in the same position, as if I had a 5 years old child in my arm, holding him closely.
 
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Monday, December 01, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
Dear Sam You’re welcome.. lol okay this is anotehr weird scary dream. me and my brother joined this group. Hrmm i think it was a group that studies histories ……. err i really have no idea.. it was just this study group but you have to pay to get in it. Anywayyyyy our teacher organised this trip to europe for two weeks for only $1500 !!!!!!!!!!! HOW CHEAP IS THAT!!! That’s including the airfare and accomodation!!!!!!!!!! My bro didnt want to go but he still signed the paper. Well I didnt know if i should go or not, coz it’s so far away~ but anyway i still ended up going. Somehow we ended up in AFRICA! We were on this big bus, there were heaps of animals around us. The bus couldnt stop so we ran over heaps of animals like the lions, tigers etc etc..
  

Saturday, November 29, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
Another high school dream.. i have this kind of dream really often.. but i cant be bother to type it up. This one is quite different.. Hrmm we were in hoxton park high of coz.. Sam, Anna and myself were in the dream. There were other ppl as well but they’re sort of blend into the background i cant really remember their faces. Anyway.. we have an maths exam coming up. I was studying really hard coz since i have forgotten allthe formula and rules. But sam and anna didnt seem to care about the test so does everybody else. Mrs Niarchos was the one teaching us maths. Half way during the class, she got a phone call from her husband saying they are getting divorced. I really wanted to ask her some maths questions but she seemed to be really sad.. so i guess it’s not a good timing..but the exam is coming up in the next period. ARrr.. We were sitting on the silver chairs infront of the science block. Denise was the play ground supervisor.. LMAO.. i think she’s the teacher. But we are the students? Anna was eating these crinkled chips at the size of A3 paper. ANd she sandwitch it with cheese!!! It’s hard to explain but it’s really weird..
 

Wednesday, October 01, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
There are some dreams that i would never ever want to share with anybody.  (HRen) e.g. my second dream i had this morning. okay anyway this morning i had two dreams. The first one was reallllyyyyyyyyyyyyy odd… I work in this pool, it’s not an ordinary pool, it’s a really deep pool, probably like 10m deep. I cant really explain what i do there, because it doesnt make ANY sense at all, i cant even use mandarin to describe it. Anyway apparently i worked with a shark. Even in the dream i did not knwo why they put hte shark in the pool when they nkow it’s going to cause danger and harm to me and others. Oh i forgot to mention, my job requires me to be inside the water and i have to demonstrate something which doesnt make sense. Anyway…. so ya im putting my life at risk. okay to cut hte story short coz its quite boring this one.. One of my client’s dad went in the pool, hes really stubborn n didnt listen to my advice. (when i got to this part i realised i’ve had this dream before, but only this part.)Anyway his son n friends were trying to pull him out of hte pool and yes they succeed. In my mind i was thinking YES.. he’s not going to die. (as i said i’ve had this dream before n he died), so i walked off coz he’s safe now, but when i turned around again, he slipped into the pool by accident. He’s legs got eaten by the shark and then he died coz of blood loss. Okay this is another dream from last week. I’ve had this dream before as well, but except this time while I was trying to escape out of the house, i successfully opened all the doors and escaped. In my previous dream, i couldnt open some of the doors. So yeh.
 

Monday, September 22, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
Also from last year. I had to delete some names, since if he knew i was dreaming about him then he’s gonna start thinking i actually like him or something. But anyway that person doesnt read my blog. But just incase. haha I don’t remember all of itIt was unclear……………. Place: High School Uniform: Dark Blue We were in this room, and the teacher was presenting projects from students. Then the teacher talked about this project, how it’s the first one that is being done like this. And it was really excellent. “apple" n I were going out (WTF dat is totally weird), he said that one is not the first one. Amy’s was. Then he got it out. Everyone clapped coz mine was way better than the other guys. Then “apple" asked me to kiss him. (I wanted to say no, but then iculdnt coz since we were together) so we did. (I didn’t like it though) Then later he went to buy lunch for me. I walked out. (I had my tablet on my hand and my tablet pen was broken?) In the dream, idont think I like “apple" more than a friend, but I dunno why we were going out, I actually like someone else which was se7en. He transfer to my school for me. We were secretly going out, I was trying to find him in the senior areas, Lorenzo walked pass, he looked at me weirdly, he was probably thinking how come Im not with “apple". anyways… I msged se7en, I found him on top of these stairs, he looked at me and walked off.. I was shocked, thinking why did he put me off… (then later he msg me, he said didn’t u said u wanna to go somewhere that no one can see?) Oh then I realized yeh I did say that. So I followed him. He walked to the basketball courts. There were three courts, the last one, no body is allowed in, only junky students go in there. So he went in, of coz I follwed, and then the duty teacher n students were tryin to stop me and give me a detention, I yelled out im pregnant don’t u dare touch me!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO I ran to se7en, we hugged each other really tightly. He’s best friend n teacher were aside watching us, happy for us. Weird huH??? lol LMAO.  stupid dreams…. haha at least i have dreams about actors/singers that i like. When will jjh come into my dream? lol and Jun mastumoto. haha
 
 

Fantasy Error

 
Ok.. this dream was from last year.. I found this file somewhere in my computer. I dont think i ever published it. So im posting it here now. It’s weird how when im reading this dream, i can still remember scenes from it. It’s funny back then I did have 20 20 vision and i wasnt learning korean. But now Im actually short sighted and is actually learning korean~! FE 2 14 7 07 Part 1 We were living in a 3 stories or 4 stories house. Mum was planning to go to Taiwan, and I wanted to go along as well, so I kept running up n down stairs coz I keep forgetting to pack some stuffs. (I forgot what happened on the aeroplane) In Taiwan, I don’t know why, but Debbie and her friends were there with us. Debbie took me to a beauty salon, them two went on a bed and asked me if I wantd to join them, I said I wanted to look around myself. Later I found this bed empty, I wantd to go on it for a hot massage, but I just couldn’t get my position right. So I left that and found something new, I was waiting for someone to come in n serve me. Later a lady did, and also this weirdo, he kept squeezing n pinching my arm I was yelling n screaming, let go of me!! He wasn’t suppose to be in here by the way. Later when the shop was about to close, Debbie n her friend weren’t here any more. I don’t know why they left me in this shop without telling me. But I wasn’t scared or anything. I was talking to the shop owner, asking her to teach the right Korean pronounciation.Later that guy came in again. He had a pencil in his hand, and wanted to stab everyone. From my observation, it seems like everyone is used to his crazyness, they just let him sort of stab them and he will let go of them. But when it came to me I was really really scared, I kept running away from him, and yeh he caught me of cause, he stabbed me, then I fell unconscious. (why wasn’t there anyone to help me?) When I woke up I was in this beautiful big room. I think I moved permanently in here. I found out that stabbing guy wasn’t suppose to be allowed in the shop it was because the shop’s security thought it was safe that night and couldn’t be bothered to guard it. Or maybe he had a grudge over someone and was too pissy to do it that night. (btw he’s hot) Anyway, when he found out that I was sick, he was really sorry about it and he felt really guilty. So he was the one now always taking care of me. I’m always in my room, I guess I was really scared. Once some girl came into my room, (they were having a party out there) She came in and we talked about love lifes, suddenly I saw her shirt it was a red maroonish shirt with red big dots. But it reminded me about the stabbing and blood. I screamed and then I fainted. When I woke up, there was no one around. I walked out of my room (my room was on the top floor and it was huge, I guess they were trying to compensate me) And then I walked to the stairs, then I saw people, cleaning up the house. I never knew how many people lived in the house until today. I never knew how lonely I was, until I saw so many people. Although they gave me the best room, but it was the loneliest room as well. Later I was Alan Wang’s kids, we talked about their family photos, and I said her mum is pretty in the photo. Later Tina Chan called me, she said she wanted me to help hanging up the clothes, I said where is it, she pointed at this direction. Then I said where? She pointed again, There was clothes there but it wasn’t washed. So I walked up closer because maybe I was wrong since I don’t have 20 20 vision. Then I see this tall cute hot guy standing there, smiling at me. I was wondering who it was, my mind was blank. And then I realized it was 小粽 (鄭元暢/JOE!!!!!) (LMAO we’re friends?) I was soooo sooo sooo happy. I jumped up to his waist and gave him the biggest hug. He was abit surprised to my reaction though. I was really happy because it felt like he was the only one around that I really knew. Except for the security who always took care of me, but that was only because he felt guilty about it. So we went out to the night market and shopped around. I told him about what happened, still I was so scared while telling him. (then Richard playin dart woke me up)
 
 

Wednesday, September 10, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
Endless nightmares….. When will i ever have a GOOD DREAM? *i got a really deep cut on my left hand. It was like almost 2cm deep, there was heaps of dirt in the wound, so i got a hose and cleaned it. (THANK GOD I COULDNT FEEL THE PAIN IN MY DREAM) I was at this st george bank. I went inside before it opened. (how the hell did i get in) They were really late, they’re suppose to open at 9am right? But i waited till 10am. Anyway and then i realised i forgot to bring some documents for whatever I needed to do. So I left. And then our whole group was at hoxton park high. We were exploring the school because alot of things has changed. Sam, Prameeta and I were together. We were first in A block and then we went to G block. Prameeta wanted to look at her maths classroom again, so me and sam waited for her. I saw this lady from work, she’s the one who kept taking endless sickies and eventually got fired (in real life). In my dream, she looked really really tired and stressed. She also look abit pyscho/mental. I was shocked, that she got hired by hoxton park high. Anyway Prameeta never came back out, so we started looking for her. We went outside to the picnic tables infront of G block. And then i see that psycho lady (err im really sorry but i was really scared) I dont knwo why im scared of her when im her friend, i cant explain it. Why am i trying to avoid her? Anyway, she walked towards me (i was standing at picnic table) so i walked away. There’s only the table inbetween us and sam watching us. She crawled under the table so i screamed, so i ran to the other side of the table again. And so on… she keeps chasing after me. I got really scared i think she coudl tell too. (i kept screaming at sam to save me but she was scared too) In the end, she put a camera on the picnic table saying this is ur friends camera she left it in G block. (Prameeta’s camera) Later lots of ppl from our year came to hoxton park we were all running around having fun. The End.
 
 

Sunday, June 29, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
Okay.. long story i will make it short i work in this place, and there are 3 guys there. The first one is Stephen but i dont call him by thatname.. in my dreams i call him by Four Seasons.. He’s not chinese, but he is asian The second one is ryan, he’s chinese and he always wear yellow The third one i dont know much about him but we’re friends, me and these three guys hang out all the time. I like the first guy. Four seasons. I think he likes me too..but im not sure Ryan likes me but i dont like him, but we hold hands.. it’s weird… maybe im using him? possibly.. anyway… we do alot of stuff together.. once we were exploring the company at night, we walked down stairs, there was this library and it was really dark and no body was there.. I got scared and i screamed out there’s a ghost! and they both ran away, didnt wait for me. once us three went shopping, one of my dad’s friend saw me holding hands me ryan and he looked at me weirdly.. Anyway,…. one day we decided to go to a theme park… For the first time ever, me and four seasons held hands.. I cant remember if he held my hand or if i held his hand.. The ground was wet and then a tsunami (cant spell that word..) came, the only thing was on my mind was.. is this real? is this really happening to me? so i was just standing there not running, four seasons pull my hand and started to run.. The next thing was on my mind was is he going to let go of me? And then he said, dont let go of my hand. THe next scene, i was in my dreams and i see four seasons telling me to pick up his bracelet which was near me. And then i woke up, i was lying on green grass, ryan was near by me. But stephen was there… i started to panic, i was digging, coz maybe he got buried. I dont know after how long, stephen walked up to me. He’s fine! We hugged each other for a very long while… if you are wondering why i called him Four seasons at the beggining of the dream but then in the end used Stephen.. Well that’s just how it is in teh dream…. now… interpretation Flood To see a raging flood with its muddy debris, represents emotional issues and tension. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood for indications of where in your waking life may a situation be the source of stress and tension. im thinking…….. but i still dont know what the problem or where the problem is coming from. Stairs To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, represents your repressed thoughts. It suggests that you are going into your unconscious. It also refers to  setbacks that you will experience in your life. If you are afraid of going down the stairs, then it suggests that you are afraid to confront your repressed emotions and thoughts. Is there something from your past that you are not acknowledging. I dont know if this relates to me. maybe…. but again, i dotn have any answers to this.. SO if i wasnt afraid. who am i going to confront this to? there’s too much stuff going on.. unless i can find a persno who’s in the exact situation and knows what to do.. THen again i ask myself.. why dont i know what to do……. maybe i do know…. i confused myself again. Library To dream that you are in a library, signifies the search for knowledge and the hunger for ideas. You may be trying to seek out new meanings in life or you need to study and evaluate your situation before taking action. If the library is disorganized, suggests that too much information is coming at you at the same time. You are having difficulty sorting it all out. To see a library in your dream, symbolizes the knowledge you have accumulated over the years. This bit i know…….. i’ve been thinking alot about what i am going to do next year. *sigh* i dont have an answer yet. This is the second time this week, i had a dream about library. The first one was about entering in a room and it’s actually a time machine.. I only entered it coz it was my job to go to the future coz i was on a mission. One time the time machine send me to a library, it was also dark like this dream’s library. But both were not disorganised. Very organised actually.. just really dark.. Grass To see green grass in your dream, suggests that there is a part of yourself that you can always rely on.  The dream is also symbolic of natural protection. Mud To see mud in your dream, suggests that you are involved in a messy and sticky situation. It also suggests that some internal cleansing is needed. To dream that you are walking in mud, suggests that you are feeling weighed down by a situation, problem, or relationship. Hole To see a hole in the ground, denotes hidden aspects of your activities. On the other hand, it may mean that you are feeling hollow or empty inside. This dream may be an awakening for you in that you need to get out and expose your self to new interests and activities. Runnning To dream that you are running alone, signifies that you will advance to a higher position and surpass your friends in the race for wealth. Alternatively, you may be running from some situation or from temptation. To dream that you are running with others, signifies festive and prosperous times. In the first part i was running alone coz they didnt wait for me In the second part we ran together…. anyway.. even if this dream reflects my current inner state.. so what? i still dont know what to do. Oh.. Akansha’s comment, I dont like my job.. that’s right. it’s jsut really stressful.. But is there a stress free job? Maybe there is, but i havent found it, anyway im not complaining. I would love my job if ilived in north ryde, maquarie park. I am tired from travelling and only have a little bit of time to msyelf everyday..
 
 

Friday, January 25, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
I had a dream.. that i was sailing on a boat for over 20 hours.. each trip takes about 15 hours or more.. and i was on that boat twice.. in my dream i knew where iwa s going.. but now i cant remember the water wasnt deep.. bcoz i could see hte corals beneath.. it was clear and smooth.. i was  with my dad, tina and helen. I dont know if  i jumped off or if i fell off the boat.. but only for like 5 mins and then went back on the boat.. bcoz that boat knows where its going.. so its not like if u jump off, the boat will still stay in teh same place.. its constantly moving by itself. Boat To dream that you are in or see a boat, signifies you ability to cope and express your emotions. Pay particular attention to the condition and state of the waters, whether is is calm or violent, clear or murky, etc. Are you “smooth sailing"? Alternatively, you may be ready to confront your unconscious and unknown aspects of yourself. To dream that you are trying to jump off a boat, suggests that  you want to dive directly in and confront those difficult emotions and approach your  problems head on. Ocean To see an ocean in your dream, represents the state of your emotions and feelings.  It is indicative of some spiritual refreshment,  tranquility and renewal. To dream that you are traveling across the ocean, signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage Coral To see coral in your dream, symbolizes the beauty of life. Acknowledging your feelings is the key to a happy and rewarding life. Alternatively, it represents purification and blood. It seems like what id reamed about all connects to how i am feeling.. Courage? i wish ihad more of that.. i am feeling so tired.. ABOUT EvERYTHING!! theres too much pressure added on me.. diana at work said. my body is going to shut down soon. @___@ i agree!!! both sides. work and family.. i wish i lived elsewhere. i am independant .. but at the same time being controlled. i hate that feeling! i ahte it i hate it i hate it! aRRRrrrr if u want me to be independant.. then LET ME THINK.. LET  ME DECIDE WHAT I WANT!!
 
 
 

Monday, January 14, 2008


Fantasy Error

 
i had a dream that samantha and her sister nataly came to my wedding~ for their table i cooked italian food for them~ it looked really bad and it must of tasted bad because they didnt look happy hahaha okay~ 6 more days til the end of this.. well at least for now.. who knows waht hes gonna make me do next month~ im gonna be training someone on rcf.. can ub elieve that? i dont even know what im doing.. well i know how to run it but i need more training on the outstanding list.. i did overtime today. 1.5hrs and i didnt even finish it.. i culdnt b fked in the end……….. if i had to solve every single problem i will b there till 8pm.. but what makes it worse is.. 2moro i will b facing hte same problem.. since im doing it thsi week n next wekk….. so no body is going b there wiping my ass.. haha man… i am gettin that feeling again wantin to fall inlove.. err but i know thats not gonna happen. haha
 

Saturday, January 05, 2008


Fantasy error

 

omg…… this is the second time im had a dream about D***d rescuing me in the water….maybe it’s because i knwo he’s good at swimming and also yesterday before i went offline, i was reading everybody’s msn status and he had a really weird one… the last time he rescued me was from many many years ago. at least 5 .he pulled me up from a fast flowing river.

this time we were both under water, somehow i ran out of oxygen.. i dunno and he wanted to take me to this other place under the water but he realised i wasnt responding, so he took me back up and KISSED ME, i shuld of said CPR, but he didnt do the one thousand two thousand three thousand thing, suddenly i felt that theres inflow of air incoming into my lungs, then i started breathing..

erRRR.. why did i hav a dream like that? im still puzzled.. dont tell me i subconciously like hIM??that will be a disaster!!!!!!!!!!!

To dream that you are drowning, signifies that you are overwhelmed by emotions or repressed issues that is coming back to haunt you. You may be proceeding too quickly in trying to discover your unconscious thoughts and therefore must proceed more cautiously and slowly. If you drown to death, then is refers to an emotional rebirth.  If your survive the drowning, then a waking relationship or situation will ultimately survive the turmoil.

To dream that you are being rescued or rescue others, represents an aspect of yourself that has been neglected or ignored. You are trying to find a way to express this neglected part of yourself.

To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are feeling overcome with emotions and are in need of greater control in your life. You may be in over your head regarding some situation.

To dream that you are breathing underwater, represents a retreat back into the womb. You want to return to a state where you were dependent and free from responsibilities. Perhaps you are feeling helpless, unable to fulfill your own needs and caring for yourself.  Alternatively, you may be submerged in your emotions.

 

Friday, December 14, 2007


Fantasy error

 
this morning i had a dream that i went to maccas and all they had was sushi but i wanted fries hahaha
 

Tuesday, November 07, 2006


Fantasy Error 17

 
7.47am in 5 minutes i gotta leave to catch a bus this morning, set my alarm on 6.25am.. set the alrm off at 7.30am, thought i would woke up. End up wakin up at 7.07am. During 7.30am to 7.07am, i had a weird dream.. In the dream it felt like it was dejavu, … jaquie drove me home coz i was far away from home and i had no way of gettin home, she drives backwards and shes scared of balloons!!  when i arrived home, i realised i live in like a desert sort of place, ghezal was there wif her family. I live onn top of a cliff. the only way to get home is to climb back, in the beggining i was climbing, but when i realised its not logical to climb this way, its not POSSIBle, then i nearly fell, but then i saw ______. He was begging my parents for me to marry him, he was my neighbour in the dream.. to be continued….
 

Tuesday, October 17, 2006


Fantasy Error 16

 
Had a dream i was in a third world country, there was a war going on.. I dont know how i ended there, but i knew that i needed to go back to taiwan. However, the people that i was with wasnt eager to go back, during my time there i constantly get injured here n there, so they decided they have to take me back because i wasnt coping with the environment. The background in the dream is set in the 1930s, HRm we didnt have a car, we had to walk…. When we got to China, somebody attacked me with a sword??? My neck was wounded and it was bleeding *obviously..lol*… “To dream that your neck is injured, indicates a separation between your heart and mind." Later when we arrived to a village, i sold a box of ‘treasures or trash’ whatever it was, because i need money to go back to taiwan.
thirsty__1/2Prince
 

Sunday, October 08, 2006


Fantasy Error 15

 
It wasnt a nightmare…because i was chosen.. But it was.. because.. we were on a plane i think.. and all of sudden i see thousands or millions of ppl standing in mid air with their heads down. Looking dead but not really dead. And this guy, THE BOSS, went around and twisted their heads off. When i opened my eyes again, there were only like 5 or 4 of us left in the sky. We were the chosen ones… for something. But i was still shaking coz i could not think of reason why i was left alive. I wasnt particularly smart or good at anything. Next we were put in a classroomm. A really friendly girl approach to me and sat next to me. THE BOSS started to ask us geography questions, there were all about rivers. or somthing..a nd i didnt knwo ANY OF THEM. I was scared that i might be the next one to get my head twisted off…. THe girl next to me told me not to worry, coz another guy couldnt answer some Qs before but the BOSS said it was ok. =___= That was about it..
 
Orz________—1/2 Prince
 

Tuesday, December 13, 2005


Fantasy error 13 ♡

 
i think i would of remembered the whole dream if i did not take too much time thinkin about the same person for the whole morning. The last time i had a dream about him wasnt too long ago… he was so nice to me, even inside a dream, i culd not confess, even with so many hints, i culd not tell him how i really feel. anyway that happend at school and sam kept teasin me about me n him and she said shes for sure tht he likes me. o wellz.. back to the reality, im never gonna fall for another aquarious… This time, we were at this swimmin pool, im not sure where it is, but we were lining up infront of Bakers Delight and i didnt know what to buy… Later i bought a small cake and i walked outside, i saw him standin there.. i wanted to ignore him because that is what he wants. he came up to me and hugged me from behind… sam stared at us… i felt awkward.. i was thinkin why is he huggin me wen he blocked me?? hahaha i had all these questions runnin thru my head… but i know in the dream i still like him, i was hopin somethin wuld change, i didnt wana break it up. by this time i finish eatin my cake and iw anted to return the bowl to bakers delight, he came in with me and i didnt know where to put it and “r" walked past and told me where to put it. Anywyas later on the weirdest thing happend.. which can explain why he hugged me.. i realised hes got BOOOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was shocked… i said to him … you have boobs i thought he wuld be embarrased coz i said that, but no.. he said to me, yeh i know, i can move them too… and his boobs grew by another 10 cm, and they were moving around like a worm. @@" arr..it was really weird, i dunno how to describe it.. but the piont was he changed sex.. hes a girl now…. 真正屬於靈魂的愛戀才將要開始……
 

Tuesday, October 04, 2005


Fantasy error 12 ♡

 
helen went pycho, she wanted to kill me with this dagger, because she said I injured her basketball? so this was her revenge, i kept tryin to stop her, i said iw ill buy her a new bball, but she wont listen, she tried to stab me and SLICE me. Later on, she got me on my left arm, i full on went crazy, coz i jsut could not believe it, helen MY COUSIn,she’s always been so nice to me and now she wanted to kill me for a basket ball? I ran away, and told everyone about helen. I went to this famous buidling, inside its a labyrinth. I remember coming here before, and yeh, i decided to challenge it again. And yeh as i was tryin climb this steepest slide ever, i saw this guy with long blue hair standing at the door, it was lorenzo!? i didnt wanna look at him, coz i guess i was scare dat hes gonna say something to me dat i do not wana hear. After i passed the slide part, i ran to the next level, and i could see that hes coming after me and i feel dat its for a bad reason. So i tried to avoid him, quickly ran thru all the small bits dat i already knew how to pass. later on i came to this room, and there was a fridge inside, with kiwi stickers on it. I forgot the trick to this part, and i was standing there lookin puzzled, Stacy came by, and she gave me the answer to this part, all i had to do was jump up and down then i can go down to the next part. I ran into this room, and there were hundreds of ppl inside, possibly thousands, and they all looked at me, i didnt know whre to go, i tried askin this girl who looks like the ppl that works here. but she ignored me, i felt really lost and i wanted to cry. But in the end she came back n help me.
 

Saturday, September 17, 2005


Fantasy error 11 ♡

 
arr.. endless night mares last time i had a ddream that my mum was evilshe wanted me to die so she keeps accidnetly spilling accids on me all all the wounds n cuts were really scary n abnormal this time it was about me seeing lots of myselves in different places and this particular one dat i looked at was me on a magical airship im on the ship as an apprentice of this magician. n theres this other guy there too, i fell for him… my lvl was higher than him and i was close to gettin this treasure that will make my powers stronger he came to my room and hinted he likes me the next morning i saw my otherself dead in the fireplace i dunno wot happend but i know he threw me in there while i was sleeping i was betrayed by som1 i loved. and he locked my corpse under this dumping place on the ship. but no one suspect it was him. ♡ludicrous
 
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005


fantasy error 6

 
did i tell you i’ve been having really boring dreams… thers no way im gona blog about that just gona write about bits that are relevant to you guys… i think it was steven, samantha, someother people and I were in a dark small room. And steven was tryin to make fun of sam, so he asked her to sing a song…. surprisingly she sang a song that had high notes, and her voice was so angely n beautiful..and steven was SHOCKED by that!! another boring dream David and i were SOMEWHERE,,,, and we wanted to go shopping but i forot my wallet, n he said go back n get it then, so i ran back to my house, but i was running SO SO SO slowly… and i was thinking how come im runinng so slow? doenst that only happen in dreams? LOL (im so stupid!) another boring dream this one is abit MAGICAL…. alana from yr11 was in my dream??!! anyway… we wantd to escape this room, and there was only one way out… a hole.. a very small hole.. proberly like the size of a width of a pencil… dat small… and we had to say spells to turn ourselves into very small LIVING items… i duno..why didnt i think of ants? i said “as small as the eyelashes of a snake." so yeh.i transformed into a snake, and its as small as its eyelashes. Before i said that spell… alana came in, (its weird i know…coz how did she come in? ) anyway.i was tryin to pursuade her to go away,,, coz she wil distract me from castin the spell… the reason why i wanted to run away its coz somehow im cheating on my bf with this black guy??arrr?? another boring dream i have no idea why but i went out with this black guy and i had s-e-x with him… *blushes.. and i got pregnant and my current bf knows about it too,,,but somehow when i was giving birth, i was scared that he will find out the baby is not black!! because the baby isnt??? but i wasnt wif anyone else.. n i was scared dat he will get angry.. i duno.
 

Friday, July 01, 2005


fantasy error 5

 
i remember i had this dream before, but this one now, it’s a continuation of it. i bought a large area of land on a hill, HRMm… and i build a university on that hill… i cant really remember the name, but i think it started with B…@@"~ anyway, i became really rich becauase of that… and lots of ppl wanted to invest into my businesss, so i rent parts of the land out, and yep…. ^__^ earn heaps from that.. It seems like i was a Queen, but at the same time there were lots of danger around me. >__<" if only i can escape?
 

Wednesday, June 22, 2005


fantasy error 4

 
heys.. that was a good interpretation of my dream!!! coolness., ANyway.. another dream…… i went back to my previous life, in a form of a spirit, the reason why i got send back by my dad was, coz i had unfinish business back in that life, and i needed to finish it the way it is meant to be.. but i alreayd went back once, and i made a mistake, and i didnt do what i was meant to do, so this time im goin back again to accomplish this business… and what is this? to fall inlove with this guy and get marry n etc.. u know~~ those things!! anyway, when i woke up, i was in his room, sittin around, dunno what to do, i guess i was waitin for him to come bak. later his friend came back n i duno what happen, we went for a walk, and we were both holding a plate with peanuts in it at the same time tryin to cross a really relaly scary bridge, but in my head iw as thinking, so what? your in a form of a spirit, even if u fall ur not gona die, but still i was very scared, later i threw those peanuts at him for fun… somehow.. i saw the guy taht im meant to fall inlove with on a big screen tv, and i got really sad… his friend gave me a really nice n warm hug.. we wree standing on top of a bridge huggin each other..really really tightly.. like the next second the other person is gona disppear.. click here to see pic anyways.. after we hugged, another holy spirit came… and said i wasnt allow to do that, and yeh, i had to re do it all over the rest of the dream was about they send me to the wrong place, n yeh~~~ =__= it was borin n long.. XD
 

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


fantasy error 3

 
HRmm. the otherday i had a dream that i lived on a cliff and it;s a place where it snows around the year, n outsides like all ICE~~~ so its like everytime u go out, u hav to ice skate ur way thru~ this girl came over to my place, n i dont like her that much~~ i told her not to ice skate around coz first of all shes not a good ice skater, n since i live on a cliff, she can fall of the cliff very easily if shes not careful~~ and yeh she didnt listen to me of coz~~~ (partly bcoz she doesnt like me n the other part coz she wanted to proof to me dat she skate) anyway… she slipped, n she was faling off..!!! and i happen to be next to the cliff.. i grab her hand but bcoz its all ice.. and plus her weight, if i kept helding on to her..then i would fall tooo…. (by the way..durin this fallin stage..a guy was standing aside watchin me tryin to save her) .. ANyway.. she was kinda draggin me down.. n i didnt wana fall. so in my mind.. i was finking.. should i let go? if let go of her. .i can just say i had to other wise i would hav fallen as wel… but right after i thought about that crazy evil idea, i decided to pull her back up,, ~~~ and the guy came to help me ~~ =__=’""" weiRdness
 

Tuesday, June 14, 2005


fantasy error 2

 
HRmm… cant remember my whole dream… but this was part of it This guy that i like (i dont know who he is) and i, were in my car … and then somehow i dunno why, but he put his finger up at some other guy, and that guy came chasing after us in his car of coz. I was driving the car, and we switch coz hes a better driver~~~ later we got rid of that guy chasing us, and he took me around the whole sydney harbour side, and we looked at everything in a different perspective. its like i always look at sydney on the north side, but he gave me a whole new 270 degrees look~ and he drive to the harbour bridge, and all of a sudden, he started to drive really fast! and i realise the harbour bridge was CUT!!! not in half.. but in a quarter!, and we fell into the sea!! i was like what the fuck!!!??? are u tryin to kill me?? or yourself? but then i realise we didnt die, it was a undersea aquarium,!!! so we were in my car, and lookin at all those fishes swimmin by~ but the weird thing was, we didnt hav any control over the car, it still felt like an accident.. i duno. its hard to describe anyway.. that was a dream that ihad like few days ago.. now this is another one, from yesterday! but its only part of it~~ =__=" i just cant remember it, coz my dad scared me, hes like WHEN ARE U GONNA WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????/// and i forgot it all.. sam n i was at this beach~~, and she saw michael comin ~ (HE LOOKS SO HOT) and she hid behind me, i was tryin to drag her out so she can say hi to her ex~ and then before she could say hi, his gf came out from a building and and they started to kiss~ ^__^
 

Monday, June 06, 2005


fantasy error 1

 
it started out very weird, infact i cant really remember it, but then friends been askin why i dont blog anymore.. so im trying REALLy hard to remember what my dream was about! but i cant remmeber any bits of it.. =___= its abit late to blog about it, i mean u cant remember a dream unless its shocking ! wel now that i played around wif my memory abit, i remember it XD here we go we went back to taiwan, me, sis, dad n mum.. we live in my big aunty’s house, her house was really nice and big, but it was more than nice.. it looked like royalty…. it was shinnin and glowing! and yep she gave me a bedroom of my own, the bed was really nice n comfy, everything was good, but right next to it, there was 4 different bathroom scales, all in different sizes. i weight myself on each of them, and it was all different, but i was convinced that they must be right because they are all brand new…. and then i walked around the big house, i overheard someone talking, it was about my dad, i think he was doing really bad in business, or mayb3 even bankrupt, something like that, and yeh.. i kept walking and then i see a whole crowd of people coming my way, but they werent coming for me, they were just simply heading my way… and there were hot guys.. hehe iwas really curious on what they were up to, so i followed them, and they were all staring at this tv, it was about another natural disaster that killed lots of ppl, lost homes etc, and they were raising money for themselves, what i mean by that is, that they were singing, i dunno. just doin things that would catch ppls attention so they can get money. ^___^
 

 

Thursday, September 15, 2005


Fantasy error 10 ♡

 
he kissed me on the balcony, i dont know why i let him when he have another girl in his heart. his lips were cold but soft i kissed back >__<" it all happend so quickly! there were people around too, but they didnt c us kissing. i ran away to the bathroom, and started to wash my mouth like crazy. when i walkd back into the room, i didnt say anything i didnt ask him why he did it he just held my hand, and i fell asleep besides the sofa.
 
 

你愛我的話就不可能如此吧

愛這種東西

不想再去思考了

在愛下去

也沒有結果 只能一個人痛苦

眼淚流下來之前

還盼望著你能來看我

 

本來我就是一無所有的人

是你帶給我太多快樂 太多回憶

對你 我只能感恩 感謝

沒資格發火吧

那只是你一次的失誤

還是只是我一次的發現

離別 是唯一的選擇

這是你我的愛情故事

就算還愛你

但是知道你並不是我的命運

時間停在我們相遇的時候就好了

Last day of Winter and yet where is my spring??

Last day of winter, and yet I still haven’t met my mr right yet. I still can’t convince myself that the possibility of that is higher than what I think. I was brought up in a perfectly normal loving family, why why why do I always get a feeling that kind of happiness won’t ever happen to me?

I just keep dwelling on the same problem. Will I ever meet that guy that I feel comfortable around?

This winter hasn’t been cold but a lot have happened, I can’t say that I’m happy but then again i can’t complain when I compare myself to the rest of the world..

I should be happy considering what I have been given.

Still I feel all alone, it’s not because I don’t have a bf. I feel like there is nobody to talk to. I have friends, but I’m afraid to open up to anybody in this world.

Even to this blog, I kept some thoughts to myself.

I look forward to the day that I look back on this day and think to myself how simple this was.